.....Reaching out for HOPE…..and found it......
I arrived at Hope full of Shame and guilt and an absolute wreck after relapsing for a couple of weeks just short of 5 years clean.
I had been “Mrs Recovery” throughout but had been plagued with anxiety and insomnia throughout this time and when I relapsed I was in the middle of a breakdown: physical and emotional...
I had been diagnosed with Celiac, Chronic fatigue and PTSD which had escalated to extremes after a mugging/kidnapping incident whilst travelling in India.
On the outside I helped many newcomers and sponsees but on the inside I was a wreck
My previous treatment almost 5 years before had been at the a Rehab in Northern Thailand that Simon managed and was Head of Counselling so felt he was the only person I could turn to with what I thought was a very embarrassing situation.
Simon assigned me a person-centred Counsellor who dealt with Trauma and addiction called Maria, She was incredible! I had never cried throughout my recovery, not one tear and this woman delved deep into my childhood and found Trauma, abuse, violence which I had blocked away from my memory, we worked intensely on my inner child and the tears flowed..
I felt my anxiety and fear which I had been carrying around since childhood lift.
Along with this the program at Hope is so incredibly varied, up at the Crack of dawn for morning exercise, yoga, bootcamp which takes you out of your head.
Group sessions, mindfulness, meditation, Qi gong, 12 step meetings, Gratitude, massages and amazing healthy food all eaten at a long table overlooking the Ocean.
The program is so packed there is no time for boredom and the feeling of family starts from the minute you walk through the gates.
The team of Counsellors at Hope are of a high standard and are all suited for the different clients as everyone has different needs, stories and poison. Alon Mind full Paul and Vinnie teach Mindfulness in a way that is easy to understand so you can take it with you when you leave.
I am back in the real world of work, motherhood and life and feel invigorated about living without anxiety, finally sleeping and I learnt that being vulnerable and humble is a strength not a weakness. I am finally enjoying recovery and having fun.
They also emphasized that there's no shame in coming back after a relapse, it takes courage and that this too is a journey which can make you stronger. Now I finally have quality in my recovery and Hope for the future…..One day at a time!
Thankyou to all at Hope..